Prayer: Lead me and heal me Lord

O Lord, it is You who heal the broken hearted. You take them and You bind up their wounds, looking upon their wounded spirit and their shattered soul to give them the peace that, now, in their moment of longing and need, seems so allusive to them. O Lord, it is You who sees the suffering and the sorrow of a lost a fallen world. No place, no hurt, no despair is hidden from You as You see the depth of our being and know the struggles that we face, promising to contend with our cause that we may find love and hope as we take refuge in You.

I hurt, O Lord. Though I don’t dare mention my hurt and my struggle to anyone but to You now, I feel the pain every day of the abuse that has come to dominate my life. It fills my life with anguish and misery, with this intense feeling of hopelessness and it just feels like there is no escaping, there is no freeing myself from the grip that it has over me. It confuses me as I look at the face of someone who is supposed to love me, supposed to take care with my heart, and who breaks it daily with the wounds that they inflict on me. It just leaves me feeling so lost and damaged as a darkness sweeps over me and I can’t seem to find a way out.

Remove from me the guilt that I have that makes me believe that somehow I am responsible for the sins of others, and the sense that I somehow deserve this because I have somehow failed, bringing it on myself. Remind me that, I am fearfully and wonderfully made, created in Your divine image and deserving of love and peace in the grace and the hope that You have for me. Build me up that I may overcome the self-doubt and the feelings of worthlessness that this abuse brings into my life, showing me that I am better than this, that You want me to have better than this.

Give me strength and courage O Lord to break from it, to reach out that I am no longer forced to suffer alone and in silence. Show me those who are there to help me, those who You have sent to guide me from this path of destruction and despair, to lead me down a road of healing that I may put behind me the struggles that all of this brings. Show me, remind me that I need not go through this alone, and that not everyone You send into my life is going to be betray me like I have been betrayed before, that there are those who will take my heart and soul and spirit and nurture it back from despair as I try, once more, to learn to trust, despite everything that has caused me to worry I would never be able to trust again.

In the name of Your Son, my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, who lives and reigns with You in the Kingdom, one God, world without end, Amen.

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